HELLO HELLO.

yeahh, today was fun. but i failed to give some teachers their card though. ahh, heck. after school we wenta marina square. same old shit. same old boring shit. hahaha. i was having this huge craving for pizza hut today. like a really big cravng. ooh, i watched devil wears prada! （： yay. its pretty good lah. but its kinda boring at times. i rate.. 3.5/5! not bad eh. okay. but there're far many other better movies ive heard of. soo yeahhh. maybe this one's not good enough. ooh yeahh. i wanna get my second hole. i think mum allows, thats waht she said on monday. yeahh. hopefully. (:

ooh my, cleared my locker, gosh. its like sooo many books. and there's lotsa holiday homework to do. plus we not onl hafta do homework, there's lotsa mugging to do. AHH, FINAL YEARS. KILL ME. I HATE STUDYING. or probably we can form a study group! then i wouldnt be so bored. but that wouldnt workeither, cos i'd be too talkative. I THINK I AM LIKE WEIRDDDDD.

today is dad's fake birthday, everyyear we dont really celebrate it, but i guess it'll be justa cake. i just reached home and mum wants me to get the cake with her but she insists i bathe first. i dont get it! why cant i just go there first. its not a long way what. urrrggghhh. you are so irrtating mummy. !@$#@!@#$#

i am having really really bad mood swings these days. its so annoying. i hate mood swinggsss. ahhhh. and then mum just gave me this bottle of furla perfume which is like, ehh. orange in color. its soooo freakyy. looks like juice huh. hahaha.

okay, whatever, ive gotta go.
GOODNIGHT WORLD.

i feel so effing bad.

I AM NOW FOLDING HEARTSSS HEARTSSS AND HEARTSSS FOR TEACHERS' DAY.

RAWR.

WOKAY. what was that for marieeee, tskk. dyou see a new skin! i made it. (: all by thy self. (: i dont know if i have time for meishi's though, cos ive gotta mugggggggg, like her. hah. hopelessly, marie. okay, new skin. vintage, AGN. nopess, not suprising. ooh, tmr we're suppose to have an early day! but, noooooooo. miss chua decided to take it away. ahhhhh, so much for trying to study hard. maths just puts me to sleep, or rather into a coma. and theres tingxie, spelling and all that shit happening tmr, god bless marie. ooh, all hail the torturous school.

isnt secondary school suppose to be less stressful? or so, maybe not yeahh. mum got takeaways for us today. no food from grandmum's. she's overrrr the seaa. hah, i think my sis just got stalked by muts. alll hail overly-gorgeous mabel. hah, i am so obsessed with the phrase "all hail" okay, whatever.

ahhh, i cant wait for idol tmr, joakim joakim joakim. (:

i trust that you wouldn't;

rahh. this hasnt been my day so far. another round of full gorging on mars bars. and with the other thought that ms chua's gonna take our cme period. its like for tuesday, cme is the only relaxing class we have, other than drama, which is getting more and more boring each week. all hail boring school, we dont even have a choice as to whether we want or dont want to attend it. aww.

oh; and check out the spammer, on thy tag board. i seriously have no idea what he/she's talking abt. but who cares. i am gonna visit cbox and seee who's the one. ahhaah, like as if i can.

my cats sleeping like a pig noww, she's freakishly adorable. and one second ago she was bugging me for food, now she's fast asleep. ooh, teacher's day is round the corner, gotta get pressies soon. ahhh.

sometimes you could say its fate,

and yknow, things would never be too late.

but thats not the case,

cos you dont even care to wait.

i see you as a source of love,

because thats just the way it works.

i care not to explain,

the hurt, from all this pain.

perphaps you think its all alright,

and you just dont seem to feel the hype.

i wish i would,

i wish i could,

erase the guilt,

of a thousand hills.

now you'd say, run along.

but when i come,

i'll never feel like i belong.

its not okay, for me,

i must say,

i never think that things would be this way.

cos we never we like that,

or rather, i had never fell into this trap.

you may complain,

or pissed, in your way.

but i dont want things to fall apart,

especially this way.

maybe you'd know,

maybe you wouldnt,

but would you care?

i dare say you wouldnt.

maybe now its all good,

but i m afraid that it would a you'd all go blue.

cos that isnt pretty, and that isnt good.

watch your back, she isnt what she seems.

so i am sitting by the computer, pissed, and gorging on the thousands of caloried mars bars that rachael bought me. i dont even care if they're expired.

so you scream and shout and me early in the morning just for me to make my bed, yeah, i am lazy. but just tell me and i'd do it. and then you force me to drink some weird potion or whatsoever that are recommended by your so called health concious friends. go away. ahhh.

and now, my camera is so fucked up. aparrently in the sd card its says no image. afterall the pictures i took yesterday, no frigging image?! ahhh. I NEED A NEW CAM DADDY.

revoltage juniors. (:
i love yall. (:

jenn// dolls and daggers says:
ohmygod. I SAW THE THAI GUY FROM ST GAB AND HIS FRIEND TODAY AGAIN!
jenn// dolls and daggers says:
hothothothtothot!
marie As she sheds her skin on stage. says:
hahaha, boycrazy.

jenn// dolls and daggers says:
and thai people are relatively much hotter then the average of sg guys. yes. dont you think so? i think so.
marie As she sheds her skin on stage. says:
i havent seeen thais.

i love my dear darling jennifer ongg. she just made my day. (:

i am real excited tmr! (:okay evryone! tmr, 1 - 130 come watch the ij dance perform! for free! hahaha, if you dont go youre missing out on fun. (:

ooh, i am back frm school. (: yeahh, dance today. ooh, i am finally getting the true meaning of dancing. hah, we used to just sit there and watch the seniors dance, but now its like non-stop dancing. the worst thing is we dont even know any details about saturday's charity drive. oh no. and how abt make-up and all. huh?!? and then all the transport arrangments? you tell me howw.

ooh mann, now joakim's into the top five, which means i'll get to see him on sat, but it also means injustice. but owells, i'm not gonna vote, its just gonna be a waste of money. nurul! youre really pretty. haha. okay whatever marie. ahh, evereyone's against joakim, i dont know if i am a not, but i dont know why i just like him. maybe its the way he handles the criticisms. yeahh, maybe so. but poor mathilda, she's really good yknow.

ooh, i am very into photoshopping now! (: yay. i love it. coolshit. haha. anw, i am suffering for muscle ache now, and it sucks. i can't even move my neck properly. mann, its tough. but its all worth it, we'd put in a 150% and do our best! ooh, and like isabel said, do revoltage proud.

THANK YOU ISABELLY, thanks for all the encouragement! (: ooh, and thanks for coming today, cos if not we wouldnt be able finish learning oure steps. yeapyeap. THANKS.

okay! tmr's a friday! smth worth looking forward to. EP! TWO FREE PERIODS. yey, and then dance after that! whoo! now i dont mind dance everyday. (:

okay, time for some teeveee. bye.

i just woke up and its almost one. oh nooo. okay funny ah, mr joakim impersonator. hahahah, shouldnt you be the one getting a life?! ooh my, i alr knew it couldnt have been the real joakim. but i really find it wierd yknow, i mean why would someone wanna post as joakim on my tag board? too free alr. hahaha, and i really wonder who he/she is. ooh mann, suspense. ooh and why did the person say in an earlier post " i am really the real joakim gomez" huh? ooh my, i dont get it. but owells. doesnt harm to guess anyway. haha. ooh, and not the first time someone told me to get a life. but this time i am not even mad, i am like laughiing la. i dont know why. ahhaha. its so funny dontcha think?

rahh, whatver. i am going shopping today! eventhough three quaters of my homework isnt done. but heck, mum doesnt know. yeahhh, talk about studying hard marie. ahh, you suck la. hoho. okay.

laterr yall.

I think Isabel Francis is so funny. ;D Yay. Go dancers.

are you like joakim joakim? i mean like REALLY REALLY JOAKIM? the one i have been fantasizing about?!?! ooh my. i think im bonkers. WHY WOULD JOAKIM TAG MY BOARD?! ooh no. i think i'm mad alr. ahhh. i dont think he's joakim. its so weird. :/ ahh.

joakim you sexy you look like WHOO!
joakim you handsome you look like WHOO!
joakim you steady you look like WHOO!
YOU DA MAN! WHOO!

do you guys rmb this cheer? we had it sung during sg idol joakim! if youre even the real joakim. ahh.

the cute joakim gomez. (:

awww, he's so charming. (:

I think Isabel Francis is so funny. ;D Yay. Go dancers.

ooh mann, school sucked. excluding dance. (: yeahh, we got back our maths results alr. owells, no comments. its a friggin' just pass. well i wouldnt even consider it a pass. ahh, well. i dont think mum will even have a reaction, she'd usually go " why ah? you want tuition a not? " then i'd go, " hm, nopes mummy, i dont want tuition." but guess what? math tuition starts tmr. i mean, tuition is good la. ahh, whatever marie. ooh yeahh. i hope i can go out with mum after tuition though! its always fun hanging out with mum. (: i love you mummy.

ahh, but marie's really gotta buck up for final year, she hasnt been studying. i am gonna start studying soon mann. (: ahh, i dont understand the geomatrical shit at all.

RAHH.

justa lil' too late;

summer smiles, of worthy souls,
fill my heart with the wierdest tones.
i wish; i cry, but no one knows,
just stab me, and still it wouldnt be known.
the jealousy, of external stuff,
make me tired, cos its oh-so-tough.

maybe its hatred, or maybe not.
they just tire me, thats not a doubt.
i wouldnt care less, but that wouldnt be me,
to ignore the happenings and just be free.
well, if i could, i would.
thats whats always said, but no,
i couldnt.

i am probably crazy,
for thinking these thoughts.
but boyy, i cant keep them blocked.
ohh, what hypocrisy.

ignore the emo-ness in me.

now, i am gonna wirte my very veyr longg thank you speech. (: please do not blame me for being naggy.

so its yet another birthday for me. the thirteenth one, gone through this for lets say, 13 times. each year different. (: yay. so yeahh, i wanna thank everyone who got presents for me, made an effort to wish me, those who msged me in the middle of the night for the on-the-dot birthday wish, thank you. and those who wrote happy birthday testimonials for me and other wonderful stuff yall did for me. has been a while since i felt so damned happy. (: and lucky too.

to jenn, my darling twin. thanks for that mention on your blog. iloveeeeyou. and yes. its been soo long alr. and both of us matured and you of course more gorgeous than ever, have stuck together. we've gone through so much. classmates in p3, seperated in p4, and then back again. though now in sec one we're in different classes, we still make a point to stick together! well, lets just call that fate la. (: so i guess i just hafta wish you and love luck. (:

to rachael, thanks for the poem and the sweet msg on your blog. i really really appreciate it. so i'm thirteen！and though youre one year younger, we can still get along well! (: so thats something worth treasuring. i relly had fun during cheerleading in pri school, and that was thanks to you! (: cos youre always so loud, wacky, funny and HYPER! (: iloveyouu.

and also to all those that specially mentioned me in their blogs. THANKYOU. I LOVE YALL.

ooh, and not for getting 'joakim' in my tagboard. thank you play pranker for making me happy. (: but i really love the REAL joakim gomez. i dare to say i worship him. cos he's so effing hot. (:

so anyway, on top of all these birthday fun i had fun in school too! (:



there's science tmr, ooh mann. people, pray for me. (:

yall make me whole,
thats why i love yall so.
you cheer me up on my darkest days,
and i ponder how i can repay & in what ways.
i wish i can keep you guys with me,
but no, i am not worthy to be.
you guys shower me with your joys,
oh boyy, i pray to god that yall would be mine.

the way i live, is thanks to yall.
to make me happy and full of gall.
i crumble but stand up with your helping hand,
for i know yall love me and i'm your bestest fans.
so many times, the help and love,
touched my heart and taught me to love.
i'd do all i can,
and all i may ever need,
to make yall glad,
for thats my creed.

thanks yall, i really feel like that luckiest girl on earth. (:

I love Swensens.

its early in the morning! i am looking forward to swensens later at night! ；D uhh, finally mann. at family dinner not done in ages. everyone's busy. so we havent been able to eat as a family for sucha long time. havent studied for lit! gotta finish up by about three. cos i'd be going down to wisma to send my phone for servicing. ;D yay.

ahhh, have yall watched the sgidol trailer? ooh, obviously a msg to joakim fans. hahah,
though i love you so joakim. this is a singing competition. oooh, feel my sadness. i looooooove JOAKIM GOMEZ. so if youre really outta the competition dont cry okay? ahhhh. my dear joakim.

marie's officially in love, with joakim gomez! ;D whalalala.

Fly me to the moon

Let me play among the stars

Let me see what spring is like on

Jupiter and Mars

In other words, hold my hand

In other words, baby, kiss me

heyy yall. marie's like bored. ooh, i think pms is sucha irritating thing! it totally spoils your whole effing day. yeap, spoilt minee. ):

Jennifer Tan you funny bunny! Whalala. I won't allow your romance to bleed away! No girl! And who mentioned anything about you slicing your viens? Chin up babe!

i think photo shop's funn. dad bought the handbook for me alr. maybe later in my life i'd be a designer! like for graphics. cool shit mann. (:

so just leave me,

or maybe together we'd flee.

i bought cosmogirl!! (: marie's happy!

my horoscope for august says i am in the guy's attention! ahahha! funnyyy. rahh. marie has dont her homework! (: ive been all good! and there's tuition next saturday. hear me weep mann. i think alicia pan is so pretty! ahhh, whatever. i replied three times to ihsan back in taiwan. ooh, money's flowing away. lala. anyone know's how much its costs? i'm not me today. whyy? i dont know either. family bday dinner tmr. swensens! yay! my prawn fritters with popcorn and ice cream birthday cake. (:

ohh, how i miss you so;

Still remember how you make me weak

How I fought to find the words to speak i just cant escape the memories

I tried but I just cant break free

Thought I closed the door on what we had

But these feelings just keep coming back

Didnt think that you could make me lose control like that

hello all. (: i am not focused! and whyyy marieee. youre such a effing slacker. you suck marie. go fail your exams la, like anyone cares. tralalala. i have adapted the habit of talking to myself.

yes, i am wierd. thank you. ;D

ooh myy. scandalous day today. whalalala. so the soccer players from saint gabs are leaving today. so kim wanted to say her goodbye to micheal! it was so funny i swear. she was literally shaking, with sweaty cold palms. (:

poor kim! she just wanted her last goodbye micheal! be grateful!
ooh, what scandal.

so byebye micheal aaron and the rest! play well mann.

WE WENT TO J8 TODAY. it was boring. as expected. mann, you gotta hate schooldays. ): so its lit on monday, math on tues day and science on wednesday. but but but! there's sgidol on wednesday! finally something to look forward to. ooh my dear joakim, dont cry you cute thingg. we still love you. (:

its my birthday on monday! but NOOOO, i am not excited. at all! why mann, whyyy. every year i get so overwhlemed and highh when my bday is approaching. but this time, nope. i dont know why. i just read jenn's blogg!

cheer up girl, marie's here. even though i am not even sure what youre upset about. ): its okay girl. you gotta take things in your stride mann! its all up to you to choose to be happy or not okay? i love youu, JENNIFER TAN KE THENG. WO HUI YONG YUAN ZHI CHI NI

so i'm gon' study for science and lit now, hopefuly i'd be able to finish up my art as well! (: yay. yeahhh, maybe.

but owells. LATER YALL.

i just need sometime to think;

baby just close your eyes, i cant take the sorrow.

this was how bored i was the whole of today. not that i didnt have anything to do, i was just so lazy to study. so ive just missed the whole of singapore idol extra. and and and! joakim is hotness! (: i am starting to think jonathan is very very charming and well, suave. ahh. its seldom that i worship local artists. ooh! not forgeting kit chan who's voice is like an angel. I AM NOT LESBIAN. thank you.
and walah! my maid just walked past and said. " jasmine beautiful uh."


hahaha! so funny! i havent studied lu deng of my chinese. ooh mann.

You make me wanna hold you to the morning light.



yeahh, so red house lost for interhouse. the rest were really good anf funny. lol. i just couldnt get in character for the game show. i was suppose to be a nerd, not a showoff. arghh! i feel guilty. JUST TELL ME ABT IT. but owells. after school jenn came over, to dress up and play around before dinner. it was pretty pretty fun. she slept! ahahah. i guess she was real tired. lol. so we got dressed and left at arnd four plus. sam couldnt go. well, i should have seen that coming.











so we had dinner at some food court at suntec. i didnt have moneyso nice nice rach helped me out first. (: two roti pratas! yay. yum. they're pretty ex la. but owels. then we wenta watch fireworks! squeezed through the big sea of people. it was all worht it. they were so fascinating! i love fireworks. its seems like singapore's quite rich. they can have so many fireworks. at one time! (: yeahh. jenn and jewel seemed quite pissed from all the squeezing. but it was worth it! (:





my chinese exam is on friday and i left my textbook in school! kill me nowww.

Marie is like terribly depressed now. She needs some drugs to get her happy again.

no more partyy. no more no more. marie's sadd. ): tralalala. hear me weep.

Save me, cos' I'm drowning in your love;

Save me, cos' I'm drowning in your love;

i think dove moisture therapy is UBERR GOOOOOOD. it smells good too. (: it makes my hair soft! ((: ahh. i dont think i'd be able to go out today, cos of stupid history exam on monday. what sadness. not much of fun staying hme studying.

EXPLAIN TO ME AGAIN WHY I'M STUDYING HISTORY?

i mean, its not like i wanna be a archaeologist or some historian or history teacher or what right. i think they should let us choose subjects at sec one. (: its 9.48 now. and i am the only one of the three awake in this house. even march is sleeping! ): ive got no one to talk to. *weeps!* my parents are out. and i am starving badly. i need to eat. i didnt have dinner last night. nor supper, nor brekkie this morning. I AM HUNGRY. oh no, dont eat marie, gotta keep that stomach flat for tanning in december! my absolute loveeee. dad says we'll get skin cancer if we continue barbequing ourselves like that. hahah. bakwa! (:

i cant wait for tuesday! tho its no more chalet, there still the fun beach party! yay! (: i cant wait cant wait! i think i should take up yoga to calm my nerves. ooh! i sprained my ankle yesterday without knowing it! mum said i did. rahh. and it so dear. and grandmummy being a traditional old woman wants to take me to the SINSEH. do you have any idea how hard they twist turn and press your foot like a piece of plastacine?! i am in for suffering.

YEAHH. my journal's so full of paper hearts and spongebob stickers. not forgeting daily doodles too, totally defeats the purpose of keeping my life organised. c0s it's so floooded with drawings, i cant write ANYTHING in. but owells. mum asked me what i wanted for my birthday. she suggested a mp3 player, cos she hates the fact that our house is always blasting with music. i told daddy i wanted a chocolate fountain, then he asked if i wanted to lose weight or gain weight. he's always wetting my blanket. but yeahh, its true la. but nobody will understand how much i love chocolate! (:

ooh! did i mention that i think our ezlink cards are so hilarious!? meishi's one is so funny! kim said we had all slimmed down since primary school, quite comforting to hear. it just shows us how much we've grown. we're young ladies now. (: and more vain and spendthrift.

ooh, and finally, mindy's awake. and the excited march who is also awake is on her head. tho i dont really know why. cats climb yknow. they climb. ooh, and i wanted to go to church today. yknow to pray for exams. but i hadnt had a date, and going to christ the king is just too scandalous for the innocent me. OWELLS.


he's hotness. (:

why is today's post so long?

later yalll. (:

I FEEL SO GUILTY. i am not going for rgs dance night and neither is rach. but we're not going. so we're in other words, stupidly paying for nothing. but i really didnt wanna go, and if my mum does not wanna give me money for the tickets, i'll hafta ask for an advanced allowance for next week and i wont have money for the partyyy. ohh mann. ): i'm broke mummy. yall can give me hong baos for my birthday. nahh, i'm joking. (: but well, i do hope grandmummy does.

they're planning a party for me and jewel next week! on the 8th! i am so happy you know. i love you friends. (: so there's a chalet and a stay over! i am bloody happy! (: well, maybe not that happy. still feel so guilty for wasting that thrity bucks. hah. i had science remedial today. pretty fun. (: its funny with people from different classes altogether. (: ooh, and we had dining
ettiquete(?) today!

DID YOU KNOW THAT MALAYS HAVE A PLATFORM ON THEIR TABLE TO PUT THEIR DISHES?! I BETCHA DIDNT KNOW THAT! HAH! WHO'S THE SMART ONE? (:

after schools are real fun now. macs is as noisy and the ij canteen. (: ive got national day practice tmr! (: yay. we're singing and dancing! cool shit! its like two things i totally enjoy doing. tmr i'm gonna buy jewel's present! (: then its over to chomp chomp for dinner.

my day's so fucking bad. i lost my art! the art piece i spent my whole lifetime on! rahh. all my effort and time! just all gone like that okay! ahh. then i was late for art because of that. ahhh. i feel like dyingggg. rahh. then during english, mrs roch kept picking on me! just because i asked kim for glue! ahh!

M.R. : marie, what is the answer? what do think he was thinking?
i was like wondering "how should i know what he's thinking? ooh my"
me: errr. *says some rubbish*
then she asks nat, and she repeats my rubbish answer.
m.r.: ooh my natalie, i am sure youre brighter than that!

i mean, what is she freaking implying? that i'm stupid! rahh. i feel so pissed. these two days have beeen real bad. i cracked myk750i yesterday ooh myyy. its so freaking screwed. mum didnt scold me. but that doesnt mean that dad wouldnt. i cant believe mum actually suggested to buy me a new phone! ahh! i love you mum. YOURE THE BOMB. （：

my throat is bleeding. i think from the excessive screaming yetserday. i can taste the metallic taste of bloood. its disgusting. ahhh. i can just die nowwww,

half the night i waste in sighs.
in the wakeful dose i sorrow.
for the meeting; the meeting of tmr.

rahh. this blog is so fucking screwed. i dont know if meish can go for sgidol tmr! ooh mann. hopefully mr koon would allow. we will study reall hard okay! my arts almost completed! i just have to wait for the pendant to dry and then stick the thing to the thing! hah! and its done! i am so full of shit. ahh. i wanna go for idol tmr! really really. i think maggie and me is friggin funny. so freaking funny. i kept falling asleep during maths ! bad habit bad habit.

homework time! (: